"This is the year I am failing. For the first time in my life. I am failing brilliantly and freely and nothing has ever been so exciting."
Once upon a time, Kaitlyn posted this quotation from someone on her blog back in November of '09 and I've not forgotten it since.
Honestly, I am terrified. I am failing - in a nontraditional sense.
I don't know what I want; I don't know where I am supposed to go. So I'm failing. I'm jumping and falling and letting go and just trying. One day, I'll flip a coin and make my choice or something. Or maybe just follow my heart, even though my heart is hurting and making my head hurt, too.
I am happy (ignore the rude/angsty post from last Saturday) and I am scared. But things will be fine, I'm sure.
I just know I will screw everything up if I do what I want. Somebody help me.
To be, or not to be?
All my love,
Addy
